|Not a recent photo, but the dance is always current...|
I spent most of midwinter break decorating the garage with the upholstered insulation panels I mentioned in a previous post, getting really good at the staple gun and the liquid nails with the caulking gun. And I kept wondering when I would consider myself "done" and ready to start using the space for dancing. The floor was in there. Wasn´t that enough? Shouldn´t I drop everything and dance? No, I guess not. It needs to look good, and feel good, before I´ll be comfortable being myself and stretching my abilities. There is always a balance to be struck in each day.
What is most important today? What´s the next step? What can I do now? It doesn´t have to be all at once. It doesn´t have to be right now. Next year I will drop everything and dance. And it will be okay. And in the meantime I will care for my son the way he needs to be cared for, and I will care for myself the way I need, and I will slowly work my way back to a place where I feel confident and completely immersed in art.